I am more and more aware of how much like a little kid I still am. I get happy, and I get sad. I expect to much from life - want life to be more than what it is. When I quit doing this I will quit being diaappointed and disillusioned. I'll continue to work on accepting life on life's terms in hopes that I will attain that level place where things are just all good. Thats what I want - the ability to accept things just how they are - and the serenity that gives a person.

I wonder how people do it without disassociating... that is the only way I've ever achieved the attitude of not caring. I hate roller coasters - real or emotional.

Signing out for now.